I lost everything I had

24 05 2012
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When you say I

3 10 2011

When you say “I”, what do you mean by that? Do you mean your body, do you mean your hands, or your eyes, or your mouth? Is that really you? When you say I do you mean your feelings, your emotions, from happiness to anger to depression and sadness, back to happiness and joy? When you say “I love you”, what is it exactly that you love me with? Do you mean your body and your hormones and your feelings? Which ones and in what proportion to each other?

What part of the I is everlasting? What part of the I continues into the next life? What part of the I never dies?

In the next life, when you and I are both dead, will we be able to find each other? How will you recognise me in that life and how will I know it’s you? When we are both reborn and remember nothing of the past life and remember nothing of our “real” selves? Perhaps it’s the eyes that give it away? Windows to the soul.

When I love you, what do I mean by you? What is it that I love? Do I love your body? Do I love your words and your voice? Do I love your past and your future hopes and wishes? Do I love your likes and dislikes?

All of these things I love but what I  love most is your love.





If you want to know

31 07 2011

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Into the Sun

17 07 2011

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In the Night Sky

29 09 2008

GEmC

I saw the Lune and Venus

Above the Mountains

In the Night Sky

And they were surrounded by the stars

And in the distance

A few clouds

Illuminated by their brightness

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GEmC

And the Beauty of the scene

Cleared my thoughts

And made me dream

Of someone like you

CDCD





Venus Signs

24 09 2008

Venus Gemini

This is the sign that isn’t satisfied with one of anything. Natives with this placement should read poetry about love, read novels with depth right the way through… to the end. They are capable of sticking through to the end, so long as it involves constant mental stimulation, variety and change. Bob Dylan has this placement, his singing voice as shown by Venus was never a “fine singing voice,” more like a gritty and smoky shout, but his lyrics are lengthy, it was after all the words that mattered more than anything. Even more than the meaning behind them…?

Venus Gemini is a fun loving fun-lover.

Venus Aries

Such intense feeling but for such a short period of time. What happened? Did you get bored so quickly of my love? Love is meant to be lasting. This placement is about being independent and strong, also indicates a love of self, which is in direct conflict with the idea of loving someone else.

Aries Venus is active, outgoing and pursues other people. It is also the placement which may be selfish in love. This is the reason this planet is placed in detriment in this sign. However, the independence of this place and simple strength of Aries makes anyone with this placement attractive in themselves and charismatic as leaders and role models. This is a classic “pin-up” film star placing. Marilyin Monroe, Pierce Brosnan, George Clooney, Albert Einstein, Jennifer Aniston, Jack Nicholson, Cristiano Ronaldo are all examples of the individual personality with much Aries charisma.

Venus Taurus

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If it creates something, of real value to people then it’s worth doing. This placement is about finding the value in things, and working out if the product will be of benefit, will make life more secure, pleasant and essentially easy and happier for people. These people are motivated by values.

Musicians and Painters: Ella Fitzgerald, Fitzgerald had the most luscious voice and warmth, coming from her personality. Richard Wagner… Created some music of real value, lasting music of deep passion and emotion. Eric Clapton, has written many love songs and been one of the most solid long lasting musicians of the Rock era. Salvador Dali’s paintings question what reality is, what we value in life. Paul McCartney, Ron Wood, Franz Joseph Haydn. William Joseph Turner the painter.

Politicians and Philosophers: Karl Marx: determined the value system and paradigm of material value changing the face of the world’s politics. Adolph Hitler: Was searching for values for the German Nation. Michael Moore: Questions the values of modern American politics. Princess Diana, and her son Prince William.

Venus Virgo

I wasn’t good enough for you the moment you set eyes on me. I was interesting, i was odd to you but that translated into attraction for you, which was never really attraction, it was more of an interest, and then I said things which were peculiarly formed which provoked thoughts in your head, which translated into a funny feeling, which allowed you to speak, which made you feel like you were listened to, and that feeling came close, it came very close but it never came close enough to let you let your guard down because it was never the right time, because it just wasn’t perfect, because I made you nervous, which translated itself into a feeling but you weren’t sure which feeling, but when you finally worked it out it was too late.

You were so sweet with your words, you always considered and thought about me and I knew you were thinking and considering me, but I wasn’t sure about what you wanted because you always kept pulling away, and I eventually gave up, but I still feel grateful for your kindness and gentleness.

Venus Capricorn

She builds our love up in her head like a castle. She builds it up on block and on stone, she creates it in solid form. She builds up our love somehow with persistent and painstaking determination. She is grounded and happy, she is so slow, but so sure, and yet I admire the fact that she doesn’t give up… the fact that she makes me feel wanted even though I give her reason to think I don’t want her. But there she is again, cautiously working her way up, working me up into feeling something for her. She earns my respect for being so persistent and unflinching, and respect is needed in love…

Venus Libra

Venus placed in Libra in the natal chart.

This is the essentially dignified place for Venus. It is akin to having power through weakness, in the sense that it is the opposing force to Aries Mars. Venus represents the female form; if Mars is the warrior archetype, the masculine, male energy, then Venus is the female counterpart, this is the damsel, the girl, the bride. And just as the ideal of Mars is strongest in Aries, as a warrior, or soldier, so the ideal of Venus in Libra is strongest as the opposite side of the spectrum, that of harmony instead of war, and that of alliance and peace. Libra Venus is well represented as a beautiful princess, daughter, or bride; it is said that in times past, women did not have choice in such matters, and that their fates were decided by others. Perhaps this is still true for those with Venus Libra often ask others to decide for them, only wanting to please. But in pleasing, they also often get what they want anyway because the nature of this placing is so fortunate that either option is fortunate to them; and it is probably where the indecision arises from in the first place.

A person with this aspect is pathetic in love. This person is stupid, and will actually believe “words of love” whether they are spoken to him or whether he speaks them to someone else, who is left wondering what this person really wants. What they really want is to live the fantasy of love, actually they only feel alive if they feel loved, and sometimes can only feel turned on if that emotion is fulfilled. Strange, because Venus is actually in an Air sign and as such does possess intelligence here. The most important thing for this person, is said to be harmony, but this is essentially not true. The most important thing to Venus in Libra is honest beauty.

As Keats said:

“Truth is beauty, and beauty is truth, and that is all you need to know.”

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Venus Pisces

I have loved you in past lives, or you have loved me in past lives. I am not good for you, but I hope that you will still love me. I am not good, i am lacking and lost, I am lonely and I am helpless in this world, I look to you to sooth my pain away, and your smiling happy-go-lucky, and all-loving self saves me from certain doom.

~Yes I have known you before, before I knew that I loved you, I knew you. I didn’t know that you were there, that you existed even, and I am so sorry that I never heard or saw what you felt for me, and I am sorry that you suffered for such a long time, without me knowing. I am glad that i know about you now, and I hope you’ll not let me pass you by again, and I hope that you will not forget the promise that you made to me. Stay true to me, have faith in me, have belief, and I will sacrifice everything for you.

Venus Scorpio

She loved me, so she picked on me.

She loved me so she hurt me.

She loved me so she spread vicious rumours about me.

She loved me so she went with someone who she hates.

Venus Cancer

Venus placed in Cancer is completely defensive about love. Venus takes her queue from her mother or father, she will look either for someone who will protect her, or for someone who she might play mother with. Venus in Cancer are very sensitive and will take things to heart easily. This is a highly emotionally reactive place for Venus, who’s moods are extremely changeable.

Cancer Venus should shower all of their affection on family members, and should make their home a beautiful and comforting place to live in order to find happiness and love.

Venus Leo

You possess personality. When you step into a room, you have an effect. You are amazing. You like to think of yourself as a film star. Certainly Venus in Leo loves themselves, but is able to give love also in a very warm and affectionate way. This placing is one of the most socially popular combinations.

Venus Sagittarius

To find love and happiness, go exotic. Venus Sagittarius loves to be far far away, and loves the idea of of meeting someone on a train, plane or ship. This person is faithful, due to the nature of Sagittarius, and generous and honest too. Venus in Sagittarius is always searching for love which is often from beyond the city walls. In order to find happiness they need an intelligent travelling companion who is as excited by the thought of going some place new as they are.

Venus Aquarius

This kind of Venus likes to have intellectual equality. They are more like a Venus Gemini in this respect, so friendship and shared interests are important. To find love and happiness Venus Aquarius should not follow convention, should look for someone that is extremely clever or extremely different. Venus Aquarius is one of the most detached types of Venus and will not mind it if they are away from their love for weeks at a time. They simply love freedom and tolerate the fact that you like freedom too, and they love you for that fact, because its something you have in common.

Venus in Aquarius has a sparkle in her eyes. She´s actually under the rulership of Saturn while in Aquarius, but it´s not the mean Capricorn Saturn, rather the intellectual Saturn. It means she has to have experience and knowledge in order to find love. It seems counter-intuitive that love can only come through knowledge, but it´s also true that Venus has rulership in an intellectual air sign, where Saturn has his exaltation.

Very, very beautiful: Paris Hilton.

 





I still have hope but I don’t need it

22 09 2008

GCD

GCEm

I still have hope…

I still have hope

I still have hope,

And I think you are hot

I still have hope,

Even though the leaves are falling fast,

And this coming spring,

I hope to see you at last.

(Interlude) GCD

GCEm

I don’t need hope anymore…

I don’t need hope anymore

Because I know I can make things

Turn out the way

I want them to be

I don’t need hope anymore

Because I know that

You love me…

Because it’s so damn easy to see…