Transits: Saturn to the First (Keep the dreams alive)

16 02 2010

When I was eight years old my parents decided to move to Spain, we travelled by car, with a caravan in tow. I was told that this was an “adventure” and so my young impressionable mind was forever impressed with the idea that when life gets dull, for whatever reason, or when you feel like it, you can go on an adventure.

I don´t remember that much about the trip, except that my crayons melted in the ash-tray during the day. In the evening though I do remember something that has stuck with me and is part of what it means to have strong Sagittarius. I remember staring out of the window and seeing mountains filled with pine trees and above the mountains there were the stars. I remember I saw three shooting stars that night, but I don´t remember if I made any wishes. My parents would have probably told us children to make wishes, so no-doubt we would have made some.

Throughout life I´ve been a bit more on the optimistic, hopeful side even though outwardly I cultivate modesty, (Virgo Rising).  Currently, some of that optimism has become a little crushed. I´ve realised that in order to maintain a job and money and for life generally, one has to stay in the same place on a continual basis, one must work, and you can´t just continually be going somewhere else, or even reading about somewhere else. Eventually you run out of places anyway.

But even though I am becoming more or less mature, with the work, with the staying in one place I will not change my essential nature. One has to channel all that Romanticism, that magic of the idea of travel in an unknown land, that expansive mystery that probably comes from Sagittarius Neptune.

At times it feels like the success that I have at work, has come at a price. This price is that my freedom is the sacrifice, that those dreams of freedom and travel even if I wanted to fulfill them are so far from reality that they barely exist.

Whatever Romanticism which was borne in me in my infancy has continued and developed and grown in my life. The long voyage literature that I read and studied, the constant travelling (with the books) both fulfilled, and fed this inner idealism. That idealism, the expansive needs within are still there, and growing and expanding. And to deny this part of life is denial of self.

This dreaming may one day take me to some tragic impasse. But if I one day died on an open boat beneath the stars in unknown waters, without a map, I would be pleased with such a death. So long as my eternal soul found freedom out there.

The Romantic Poets of the 19th Century were not as free as the wind. They needed money from which they could base their lives on. That money may have come from aristocratic  inheritance or from the new wealth of the industrial revolution. But their freedoms had basis either in their own work, or the work of other people within their society.

The freedom of conquistadors, of countless soldiers that went off on “adventures” likewise had its basis in some dreary Capricorn heart, some Emperor adding up resources and weighing up information about possible conquests.  The price that Native Americans paid for their freedom before the advent of “the white man” would have been that the natural forces of the Earth were a lot closer to them and could take their lives with more alacrity: death by poisonous mushroom perhaps, or death by an infected cut.

I´ve made my pact with Saturn. I wish not to die in a gutter on the principle of freedom. Knowledge of the world gives me control, and understanding. The idea that the universe is infinite, provides infinite possibilities of freedom must go into the subconscious or into some forms of fantasy.

The pact with Saturn is that we must all support ourselves materially. This is not to say that the dreams must die, but it does mean that such dreams are to be kept for other times.  Either the psyche is allowed to expand along the roads which are natural to it, or it begins to split into two differing sides. It´s the split personality of a writer.

Saturn transiting my natal 1st house has made me realise that life does consist of work, and that work is a kind of form of benign slavery which binds you to one city in one country with slim chance of going anywhere else, or even the possibility of going anywhere else. The fact of having late Virgo rising has resulted in Saturn in Exaltation making this kind of bind a little more pleasant, or nicer than it might otherwise have been. The place of work is an amiable sort of place, with little touches here and there.  It´s something I am grateful for.

The childhood sense of wonder doesn´t have to die though. A year of work, and I will have money saved and I will have time off. Time will never be infinite with Saturn in the first, however, there will be opportunities further along in life to be reckless with a yacht or to go off to some mountains with a tent. Dreams which were impossible because I didn´t have the money or the will to do some of them will be possible some time. The possibilities of expansion for a disciplined and tempered mind may be even greater, for one is unlikely to make as many mistakes with knowledge.

Make it Concrete

The second realisation is that although it is fine and well to be an optimist, to have an expansive Sagittarian nature that appreciates sci-fi or long books, travel, religion etc.  There is a point in life in which we must actualise things. Expansion and optimism have to be put to a purpose. The Saturnine purpose is a purpose that is repeated, buildings that stand in stone. Work must not just be work. When I am teaching, that inner optimism is still there I hope, the expansion takes the form of speaking, but it is still there.

The question I want to finish this little contemplation of Saturn´s serious transit in contrast to the inner optimist is on the lines of “what do I want to achieve?” or even “what do I want to be?”

No achievement will be satisfactory unless it is a personal inner achievement, something that I myself am pleased with. And it´s interesting that I pose the question of what I want to be with Saturn in the 1st house also. I propose that the measure for any achievement is also in a sense what I become at the same time. To achieve great things and yet to be weak, either morally or physically, would sully the whole thing. Yet to not achieve anything particularly special, but to be respected and liked, and to be strong, (morally or otherwise) would be worth it.

To Know the Future: And to Make it Happen

9 11 2009

There are pros and cons to Astrology. As a science or an art for those who are worried about the future it can give you some degree of control in life. There is a life written out in the birth chart, and there are events which are clearly explainable in the transits and progressions. Part of me wants to justify looking into the future and anticipating the future by saying that we “need to be prepared for it”, and that if one knows that it will definitely be raining a week on thursday, then one can buy a good coat and an umbrella, and not make plans for that day.

Last Saturday I saw the Sun transit my natal Scorpio Saturn with Mars closely square it. I knew from past experience that whenever this transit occurs, I have a bad time of it, whether I try to or don´t. I knew I should have stayed in and moped around the house, but I didn´t, I chose to go out and party, albeit with caution. The night was not fun, I drank too much tequila too quickly and I ended up at home by midnight anyway. When I woke up the next day, I was miserable, but I knew that the transits gave an aura of inevitability, that what I knew was going to happen, happened despite my enthusiasm and determination to ignore them.

What any “future seer” does not see and will never see, are that there are more possibilities than they can justifiably narrow down to make true predictions. Not only that, but in making predictions they are in fact modifying the outcome.

One thing that I have had admiration for, one thing that I have had a long-lasting desire to do in life, was to exploit potential to its full. What I mean by this, is that whatever a chart describes, one ought to try and flesh it out in life to its maximum possible potential. This I believe is something that the stars can help us with. If you know that a planet in a sign signifies the potential for something, for example Mercury in Gemini, then this very knowledge ought to be the impetus to exploit that planet to its fullest. With this placement it would be far better to read and to write extensively, to become knowledgable and mentally sound rather than to waste it on things that are not so useful, like gossip or magazines. That placement has potential for knowledge, and for intellect, the choice then is whether to use it in order to be cunning with people, or to use it in order to make yourself someone that is interesting to talk to.

To know what your future potential is, is one step to making a decision about what your future will actually be. For someone with a Libra Venus in the 1st house making decisions is not easy. Many different options go through the mind, both consciously and subconsciously, there are physical problems and there are psychological wounds, there are things that can hold you back in life and hinder you. But once you know the astrological signification of things, once you understand the nature and inevitability of what goes on in the Heavens, then it becomes easy to decide on what you want, because it is written in the chart anyway.

Personal chart analysis has taught me that things that I wanted to do, but couldn´t because of fear are possible no matter how much you are afraid of them. The fears that held me back can be described by Saturn in hard aspect to the Ascendant and to the Sun/Moon MP. But, take fear, turn it into seriousness and persistence, and everything that you are held back in becomes reality, you just have to want it, and will it. Sagittarius Jupiter in the 3rd house is the sign of a teacher, there is a stellium there too, but in essence the potential was there for me to teach enthusiastically in religious or higher education, in foreign parts, and I´ve done both and am currently teaching in University level. The first thought of being an English teacher may have been in school at age 15 or 16, so it has taken me ten whole years to crystallise the germ of that thought, and it may take me the rest of my life to exploit the potential of that planet to its fullest potential. The fears kept me back, but the potential, is something that I worked out about a year ago while studying astrology. I worked out that Sagittarius Jupiter in the 3rd house makes an excellent foreign language teacher placement. Virgo Mars in the 1st house means that I also look like the part, despite the disorganised mess that I have to fight every day in the form of Neptune square to it.

In the future, I can see further developments in life despite the inhibitions that Saturn has brought to my psyche. The planetary placings are more powerful than the fears that hold us back. What one desires in life, what one really wants in life is always going to be based in the heavens, and written in the chart. What I had given up on many times during that ten-year period, I had achieved  with progressed Sun conjunct progressed Jupiter illuminating the MC from the IC. Other things that have been difficult for me in the past, but that I have also had a desire for since an early age might be signified by Libra Venus. The simple meaning of this placement is a loving marriage or a beautiful wife, or a considerate but indulgent other half. The first house means that this is probably one of the most important things to me, or it is destined to be. This is an area of potential that I haven´t realised for the same reasons as the Jupiter potential not being realised. Fear and caution, inhibitions, not having enough faith in myself or in others. But this is an Angular and Cardinal placing, it is in domicile, and it is also in harmonious aspect. I can stop being fearful in relationships and begin to trust that the heavens have decreed that I am destined to have someone love me according to the nature of Venus in Libra.

Life contains a vast amount of pre-destiny. But the odd thing that I have found in a personal sense, is that what I have desired and wanted, for long enough, despite personal fear, has become reality. There are personal traumas, which I have gone through, and I din´t in a million years wish for them, but they were inevitable also, in a sense they were necessary in order to achieve the things that I had wished for. These little personal tragedies might be viewed now in retrospect like looking at the water in the sea-going out before a big tidal wave.

I might even go as far as to state that what you truly want in life, what you wish for and what you dream of, can be found in the natal chart. If it wasn´t written in there, you wouldn´t wish for it in the first place. The more Angular a planet the more conscious the dream will be, the more essentially dignified the more likely that the dream will be realised in the way that you want it, or in the way that is fitting to it.

In essence what I´m saying is that it is possible to get a clearer idea of potential from looking at a chart. But it´s when that potential is matched with real desire, that you can make things happen. Obviously there are things that are less easy to achieve, and the specifics of great achievement are probably only one in a hundred million, and may even be discernable by midpoints, and other tiny little details of a chart.   Those great achievements are not important, what is important to each individual varies, but what is important and desired in life ought to be prayed for, worked at, and brought about by will. Finding its potential in the chart is just one step to making it happen, but finding it in the chart is also like finding God´s seal of approval. Once you find that certain things are destined, you can stop worrying. (Or worry less if you have strong Virgo influences).

Jupiter Signs

26 09 2008

Jupiter Capricorn

Jupiter in hard aspect to Saturn in a natal chart is sometimes a sign of unhappiness. Jupiter signifies in many ways the ability for a person to be happy. The sign of Capricorn is not very sympathetic to the feeling of expansion, to the feeling of going up, of being free. Capricorn symbolises amongst many things what is serious, what is full of delay, of inadequacy and of just not measuring up… which is why it is also so strict about doing things properly, the first time. Capricorn has had a lifetime to learn from its mistakes.

Jupiter doesn’t like having to pay attention to detail, Jupiter likes to feel that where it goes and what it does is new and exciting. Jupiter likes the feeling of discovering new horizons, so for Jupiter, Capricorn symbolises being in a valley surrounded by mountains that impede that sense of expansiveness and freedom.

Jupiter Sagittarius

Jupiter Sagittarius is able to find truth. If life contains truth and meaning, if the higher meaning of life is discovered and life contains that element of hope which is the big thing for Sagittarius, then contentment and joy can be found. Jupiter in Sagittarius feels that something good is coming, it doesn’t matter that it never in their lives actually materialises, the fact is that this placement has Faith. Jupiter believes in the future, Jupiter believes the big promises that it makes to itself and to other people. In the Age of Pisces, Jupiter in Sagittarius was the priest who believed in the great beyond, in the afterlife, in something amazing and wonderful that was in “the world to come.” This does not have to signify religious Faith in every instance, all that this placement means is that Jupiter has Faith and will follow where the benevolent forces of the Universe lead it. Jupiter here is happy to go to foreign countries, because it believes that good things await it, “on the other side.” Often this is not so, life is harder than that, so then Jupiter returns back home, believing that good things again await him back there. The disappointments that usually make people unhappy in life seem to be like water off a duck’s back to Jupiter in Sagittarius.

There are of course some who are lucky beyond the wildest dreams. But like the Priest in the Monastery, it is their Faith and nothing more than this, that they have cultivated over the years which bring feelings of joy because there is something good, special, joyful waiting…