What can be changed and what can´t

21 01 2010

In other posts that I have made I have argued in favour of destiny and against free human choice. I have said that people are 100% conditioned into the actions and the events that occur in their lives, and in a certain way I still agree with this. It comes down to the old saying that you can call a cat a fish, but it will still be a cat. Free will is akin to the cat himself saying and thinking that he´s a fish and declaring it in joyful exuberance. The United States can declare that it is a “free nation”, but it´s just a country like any other, it has laws and people, an army and a head of state. It may be more successful, but that it is more free than anyone else is probably not true.

When I worry, (Virgo rising with Virgo Mars Rising squared by Sagittarius Neptune), I sometimes think that somehow I can control my world around me if only I were more organised. But I´ve come to realise that I am destined to think that I can control things in this way. This is part of the planetary alignment in the sky when I was born. Fear and worry leads to action, which is called for in order to fulfill the planetary patterns.

Can some things be changed through the individual will? When action is taken, it feels as if destiny is created through the self. And I think that there is the possibility that individuals can change their realities. Energy comes down from the heavens all of the time. This is the will of God, as in Heaven, so on Earth. People though, aren´t adaptable though, and can´t change what they are from one day to the next, in order to fall in line with the cosmic order. It´s true, some people are more adaptable. But people can still do God´s work.

This is where the Biblical explanation comes in handy. Man had a destiny, in Eden, and well, humans chose to opt out. There´s our free-will from the start.  Many have stated that it is Scorpio where Man fell committing some form of vice, but Man in fact is synonymous with the constellation of Aquarius. The Fall of Saturn ruler of Aquarius and ruler of the human condition falls in Tropical Aries, the sign where individuals do what they want. Libra, Saturn´s exaltation is then where our judgement for that selfishness will be found. This is not to say that Libra is any better than Aries.

What I am saying though, is that our lives are planned for by a higher power. And the difference between our own wills, and that of the higher power, is that when we make judgements, it´s impossible to make the right judgement, we simply don´t have the foresight of the creator.

The difference is between making something happen that is not meant to happen, because we as humans are separated from God and do not know his will. And on the other hand waiting and just allowing the instructions to come down to us.

When human beings cut down trees, and leave the land alone, eventually trees grow back in the same place, because the climate and the fauna favour it. Cutting down the trees is not exactly God´s will, it´s Man´s actions, ruled by the sign of Aries. In the perfect balance of the creation of the Universe, the trees do eventually grow back because there are seeds, and the counter-action, the Libran element of balancing things out, although it takes time and is invisible at first, is real.

Is this to say that human beings are not to cut down trees? Clearly not. Just that it´s obvious that in this world actions result in counter-actions, which are invisible but which are there even though in our semi-foresight we aren´t aware of them.

Man was created in order to be master of the trees and of the animals, this is also stated in divine law. God allowed us to do with them as we saw fit, to name them and to eat them. The divine will, was that humans were meant to be happy, we were meant to enjoy the fruits of this world. It was the fruit that wasn´t ready that Man picked that got us into this mess. It was a lack of patience, and a lack of the knowledge that in life God gives everyone the same amount of happiness, just that it is meassured.

In my life, I try everyday to not indulge myself or to take what is not meant for me. The secret to true happiness is to eat porridge everyday and really savour when someone gives you a chocolate. The secret is to not worry about your job, about whether they might want you or not, but just to calmly do it without thinking that someone is watching you and what you do. If you weren´t good enough they wouldn´t have picked you.

It is hard to find a way to trust in divine law, it is hard to have faith in something that you can´t see. In one sense I don´t think that this law needs to wait generations in order to be fulfilled, in our lives, an evil committed will pollute the person who commits it. And even though they may appear to have got clean off the hook, and enjoy the fruits, consecuences are destined to follow them.

Collectively, obviously the global warming issue fully demonstrates this idea of the balance within nature. The interconnectedness of the planet is astounding, and all of the scientists are in accorance on this fact. On a personal level though, there is a destiny for all. What would be interesting, would be to observe people who didn´t take their quota of happiness before it was due or take more than they were entitled to, then suffer for those debts.

The Last

19 01 2010


Falling falling falling again.

Falling into that trap I´ve been.

This is the last time that I will allow myself to fall.

I look into your eyes and I´m falling again.

But you are the last one.

After the sadness that follows,

When I lose you,

There will be no more.

You are the last one I will think about

In lonely nights,

You are the last one that

I will look to the stars and ask about.

You are the last one that I will

Cast romantic thoughts towards

Like throwing a net at Sunset on a darkening river.

You´re the last one that I´ll dream about,

Because you will be the only one.

Transits: Neptune in the 5th and 6th houses

11 01 2010

Neptune in the 5th

Until today, I have not realised just what the influence of the planet Neptune implied or signified. Neptune takes a long time to travel through one sign, and therefore through one house. It has been in my natal 5th house since I was about 12 years old. About the same time that I fell for a blond Canadian girl in school, that I would not stop idealizing and thinking of as truly beautiful, even now, though I am not “in love with her” and haven´t really thought of her since I left school.

Placidus or Equal?

Something that I must note, is that currently Neptune is square my natal Sun on the cusp of the 6th house. If I use the Placidus system, then it´s still got 4 more degrees to go, if I use Equal then it is past the cusp as we speak.  An argument against using Equal and re-drawing the lines is that I know someone who has Neptune on the cusp of her 5th house in Placidus, but would have had Neptune in her 5th some 5 years ago with Neptune 10 degrees earlier. I will note that she´s become extremely romantic and has decided to sacrifice things in the name of it recently.

Neptune in the 6th

Something that is noteworthy in my observation of the transits is that the presence of Neptune I am now feeling fairly intensely in the 6th. People are asking me to cover them and their work because I have said “yes” in the past. Though I was proud of the firmness in that I said “no” today, since I committed myself to something else. I feel other people´s discontent at work now, little gestures and modes of speaking. The negative side of this though, is temporary, since Neptune is only square me for the time in which it is within one degree square of my natal Sun. I´m also afraid right now that I might be diabetic. Neptune makes the imagination work overtime.

Last year, 2009 now, during the first square I had with Neptune in March, I began working in a religious school in a voluntary position. I found compassion for the children, but I also fell for my co-worker, there was great disillusionment at her hands. It appears that this square of Neptune was working through both houses. Working in the school, teaching children is pure 5th house.  Being romantically disappointed with someone also sounds like the 5th house again. But this was work, and I was learning a vocation, and it was a daily misery which can only fit into a 6th house framework, it was also at this time that I began taking medication for a foot complaint which made me incredibly drowsy, a foot disease that they say is eczma, but which is not cured yet and which I´m still not sure what it is.

Come the second square of that year in August, I found myself on a course in another city, getting myself a “magic” certificate which has made me employable. In essence, it is a pass card for teaching anywhere in the world, and coupled wityh my degree in “book club” I´ve found myself in a nice job in a University because of it.

Back to the 5th house

The blond Canadian girl was a fantasy, someone I´d dream about and, well, fantasize about in my teens. She was the reason I went to school and didn´t stay home or “bunk off”. School, although associated with the 3rd because of the learning and daily travel involved is in fact a 5th house matter, the house of children. In school I was a victim of bigger kids, and a victim of anyone that didn´t have acne, which I had, and which earned me the title of pizza face, amongst other things, I was also a nerd. But in the end, school was a place I had low defenses, and I was open to the Neptune style of attack that went on there.

Leaving school though, I was flakey, I didn´t know what I was doing, and it was probably down to a lack of ego, a lack of desire for anything except an easy life. It was the easiest thing available to me. So I went to book club.  This is one of the better manifestations of the Neptune energy. The love life still involved women who were either not available or not interested and I can confirm that the course of this time although spent alone has filled me with a very rich imaginative life.

On the Cusp

The lessons of Neptune are very clear to me. I will not allow anyone to make me feel inferior. People whose influence makes you feel either unhappy, or disappointed, or low in any way are not to be allowed in your life. You don´t talk to them, and you don´t let your ego get squashed or eroded.

The intelligence of Neptune must be utilised creatively. And one thing I´ve found myself doing is bringing in creative work into my work life. It is satisfying, and if I didn´t do it I would likely be discontented in work, and this would likely show, and I would likely cause people to dislike me.

Neptune exactly squares me next week, so I will brace myself for disappointments, for that feeling of falling. Whether it is a 5th house event or a 6th house event, it probably won´t signify much, if anything at all. But it is likely to be with me for the next 13 years until Neptune appears on the Descendant. This is the third and final round of Neptune taking me into the 6th house. Since Jupiter is also there now, I can´t discount the fact that good things can happen thanks to the great benific in domicile. But I am thankful and grateful for what I have now, and I am glad that I have done that voluntary service. I feel like I´ve worked hard, and given myself entirely without expectation of reward, though there has been reward. I mustn´t forget it.