Historical Event: Solar Eclipse of October 1492

As the caravels silently sailed around and past the islands in the Caribbean a solar eclipse took place. In the Iberian peninsula, Sagittarius was rising. The sign of distant voyages, with Neptune planet of illusions and mystical experiences, the planet of paradise. The eclipse itself in the 11th house of fulfillment of dreams and joint ventures with like minded people.

This is a north node eclipse in Scorpio with Pluto conjunct with a three degree orb almost exactly on the dragon’s head. After arriving in San Salvador the adventurers made their way to Cuba and landed there on the 28th of October.

 “These people have no religious beliefs, nor are they idolaters. They are very gentle and do not know what evil is; nor do they kill others, nor steal; and they are without weapons.”.

The people he met were innocent. Though in a historical perspective empires are founded in blood and the American continent had several empires before this date already.

On one side of the exact eclipse light and on the other, darkness. The exact eclipse took place at day break with the Sun rising on the Ascendant in Panama and Cuba. Just in the darkness the eclipse was in the 1st house bringing with it the physical changes and physical presence associated with the body of the 1st house. On the bright side it was already light and as such the eclipse pierced through the early daylight of the 12th house bringing with it the greatest spiritual change.

A Plutonic Solar Eclipse is not a completely rare thing, it happens from time to time. But in Scorpio one might say it is relatively rare because Pluto isn’t in Scorpio that often (twelve years every 236). The eclipse of 1492 did not just lead to the formation of the United States (which is something to celebrate) but it also created new races.

For those who quibble as to whether Pluto is a “real planet” or not, or whether indeed Pluto has any power in tropical Scorpio, one only has to take a look at the Solar Eclipse of October 1492, and understand the creation not just of history at this moment but the demise and creation of new civilisations and new races.

More than 500 years have passed since this event, however, one can say that 500 years of history can be traced back to this moment in time. Something big, which was always there was revealed. Europe was revealed to the peoples of the West and America was unveiled to the peoples of the East. In the grand historical perspective the peoples of America still carry the blood which was in this continent before 1492, though North America may be predominantly new blood, the south retains its genetic inheritance.

From this chart one can conclude that Pluto really has a bearing on evolution and on being able to see what lies behind and beyond. It is to sexy Scorpio that the 39 sailors who decided to stay with the Guacanagari can be thankful. They must have felt that they had stumbled upon paradise, since those people had no religion, no weapons and lived peacefully and innocently, a far cry from their homeland. And of course for a lonely sailor to discover lovely island women with innocence, why would he want to leave ever. It might not be too different from a city boy who moves to the country and discovers some honest country girl with no pretensions. The only difference being that the cultures are a bit more separated by distance and time. Many will always castigate this landing and paint it as a rape of that innocence. However, one might speculate what those lovely island girls thought of the urban civilised chaps in white shirts and hats, perhaps they were impressed too. New races are not born out of hatred, along the way there must be some feelings.

Comombus’ observations about the people he met on the first voyage show him to have been highly aware and sensitive to what innocence and gentleness is in order to appreciate that in those people who received him. In order to perceive it in those people, it must have been part of his own culture and we might further say part of all of humanity.

Who discovered who? Decide for yourself.

The Philosophy of the East

The basis of life is nothing. When we really comprehend our lives while understanding there contrast in relation to the absolute, which is an emptiness which contains everything, only then will we find true happiness. Contemplating the void for many is a frightening experience, because it makes you realise that everything which you base your life on is very flimsy and temporary. But that’s not what this philosophy is asking us to do. It doesn’t want us to be afraid, to live in fear, to live with a realisation which is in itself terrifying.

But it does make us realise that our lives are something which is in contrast with that emptiness. In this philosophy we are not supposed to realise anything, to learn any principle or follow any particular set of beliefs or commands, though there are guidelines for those who need to cling to something such as “don’t eat meat, drink, have sex, kill”.

Sometimes we wonder why did our lives turn out this way? Why am I suffering? The compassionate, as was Christ. Those masters showed us that suffering comes from clinging to false ideas of the self. Who ever actually does anything in life with the thought that actually one day they will be dead? No one ever thinks that this life is temporary. Everyone always acts as if they are building their life forever, treats it as if it were infinitely sustainable and never ending.

 

What can I say that is reassuring? In this life, we are not “strangers in a world we never made”, as Alan Watts put it. We came here or rather, we are the world, not separate from it, but rather part of it. Just as the fish is not separate from the river or the bird separate from the sky. We always trick ourselves into believing that we are. The reassuring element of this knowledge is that everything is, as it ought to be. Actually if I contemplate all of the lost opportunities and failures of my life, those are meant to be, and that in reality the world does not produce one single human being that it doesn’t want to produce.

There are different states of awareness of course. Those who are aware of the interconnectedness and of the essential emptiness of life eventually enter into the Deva world, the find supreme bliss in living, and happiness, but impermanent happiness, and they must eventually come back down because it is temporary. Those who do not have awareness are more likely to suffer from day to day because their conception of reality is dependent on very temporary things which they conceive of as permanent.

 

To find enlightenment one must come into contact with that essential emptiness. It is a state of existence a state of mind in which there are no people to cling to, no ideas, no thoughts, not even images, no principles, no beliefs, nothing. It is not a state of darkness, but there is light, the light of consciousness, and once you experience that light, there is bliss to be found.

Our lives which depend on planning the future, depend on defining ourselves with the past are not authentic not really. We put ourselves in a straight jacket when do this, when we are taken in by the illusion of the future and past, with our ideas of who we are. The idea that I am me because I am a teacher or that I was born in England, or that I like classical music or heavy metal music, or the idea that I have a religion, those are not real things, they are not “me” in the end so all defining is futile.

 

In this sense then, life is a happening. It happens. And to hope that it could happen or should happen in any other way is our source of suffering. Most people think about what they wish to do or achieve in the future and contemplate their successes and failures in the past. But this is a cause of anxiety. There is no past and there is no future, there is only now. In order to find liberation one breathes out, releases all desires and hopes. What is destined will come of itself and on its own volition.

Because our egos are based on a mistaken idea of who we are, this is the reason why “I can’t change anything”. In fact the “I” which wants something which possesses desire is actually just a manifestation of the greater power, the universe. Of course the desire must be fulfilled, all desired are eventually fulfilled. In science the negative charge always travels towards the positive charge which is its fulfilment. The “I” negative is attracted to the “I” positive in one sense, but both are just a play of forces which belong to the whole, and once they are united, the overall charge goes back to zero.

 

The point of all of this is though, to acknowledge that the individual “I” is actually in the exact spot where it should be. But, that at the same time, all ideas, all abstractions, history, and future plans are also without meaning. The reason for this is that all abstractions take the “I” away from its true self.

Pisces Neptune Experiences

The world is the same as it was yesterday, in the sense that it carries on without much notice of human life. But to us humans, after living for 14 years in an Aquarius Neptune era, and perceiving and living life according to all Aquarian ideals, Neptune going into Pisces will make us think and feel it is a new and very different world. 

During those last 14 years I have lived inspired by Aquarius Neptune. One thing stands out about this life. It has been a life aloof and standing back from life. In Aquarius I have been studying life from a distance without really joining in. I have been reading about a dead and buried ancient civilization, but without being a true part of that civilization, or my own. During those years I have felt alone many times despite having friends. I have rationalized and understood life in terms of a system, which i have compared to many other systems whether they were astrological, or political, philosophical, or about the theory of teaching. But where was I? Who was I? I was of no emotion and of no particular party. I was impartial, but i was far away. I tried love, but I was too cerebral about it and it didn’t work for that reason.

Now I feel different. I had an experience that no words can describe. I might as well write poetry in this space here. Pisces has much beauty, and love and kindness in it. It also has temptation and sin. But, so long as I remain morally upright, no suffering will come to me. I must put my total faith in God now. The experience that I now have is not a mental experience. It is a vibration which resonates throughout my entire body, it is a powerful feeling. Words fail me, they just won’t come, they don’t help and they don’t work. ALL of life is feeling. But the highest form of feeling comes from love, which in its true meaning is SACRIFICE. This is the reason Venus, planet of love is exalted in Pisces. If you love one person you sacrifice personal ambition and pleasure and you give them your time and money, that is sacrifice and that is love. When Christ died on the cross that was sacrifice of his own self for all of us. But sacrifice is beautiful. We do not have to die physically. All that must die is personal ego, the egos of lust, anger, fear, and possibly many other egos which we are not aware of.

When Neptune first entered Aquarius in 1997, I became intrigued by Astrology, a system which allowed me to study human life and functions without actually living or experiencing them in any kind of personal or subjective level.

Today in 2012 with Pisces Neptune I became aware of the infinite to which I am connected to, to sacrifice and to true love which is based on nothing more than pure sacrifice. This kind of love comes close to the infinite. It is a feeling of total belonging. This higher dimension is not reached through thought, and through intellectual understanding. This is why I have been praying and meditating. This is the reason I have been ridding myself of excessive possessions, of clutter in my house and clutter in my mind.

There is a choice. In Pisces there is a choice. You may give your all to one person and to one God, and find bliss and happiness in doing this. Or you may pursue your desires, indulge your senses, lust, and anger, and by doing so bring about your own losses and suffering. God has one life planned for us from our birth, this life would be paradise if we did  not follow our animal desires. I pray to God to show me the path, to keep my heart clean, to make sure that I never want what God has not planned for me. I pray that the love that I have found never diminishes.

Neptune Square/Opposite Sun

Going through a transit and living it from day to day for four entire years is surely the very best way to understand it, you get first hand knowledge of the significance of a planet, a sign and a particular astral energy.

The Sun is the vitality, the joy, the happiness the reason we’re all here, on this earth. The Sun is not the body, that signification belongs to the 1st house. But, the Sun in itself is the essence of life, the soul even. The Sun as the heart of the system shines its light on all other planets and houses, it is the capital city, the seat of government, the head of state, it’s the leader, hence the association of the Sun with royalty, with presidency.

The particular effect of the hard aspect of Neptune on an affective level was a feeling of listlessness. The situation pertaining to life is seen as hopeless, without reason, without purpose, without direction, without escape, even though the mind is able to conjure up and imagine being elsewhere with amazing vividness.

The Sun is not the ego. It is the true self, it is in essence, giving of yourself to others, shining the light around you. On some days the true self will say things like “I am nothing”, it is the idea of being worthless or even invisible. If you feel as if you have no purpose, then it is easy to think this way. If your life is purposeless on the other hand it’s just as easy to give of yourself and serve others without hope of recompense. If the Sun is excessively egotistical, and the spiritual lessons have not been learnt, then the feeling of purposelessness obviously can drive the person to other forms of irrational action, self-indulgence, and self-pity being two of the big contenders. Sometimes the listlessness and hopelessness is so great that the person considers total and absolute escape.

“I am unhappy right now, I can’t deal with this”, is another favourite phrase of this combination. There is a great deal of disappointment. Anyone born with the Neptune Sun in hard aspect must eventually find a way to give life meaning and overcome the emptiness of the SOUL. Serving others and being kind to others without hope for material gain is the very best way to deal with this aspect. The higher purpose in life is to serve others, this is the great lesson from Neptune.

Providing a real service to others, which contributes to their well-being is the real need of Neptune. The thoughts must eventually become: “How can I eventually put a smile on your face and make you happy?” Naturally to do something for money is anathema to Neptune, because it sees right through the illusion of money. The rock-star or film star that makes vast sums of money, but under the rays of Neptune realises that he or she is nothing more than a leech and has not actually contributed to anyone’s happiness is the saddest manifestation of Neptune REALISATION. The soul’s purpose and journey is painful when this happens. So the biggest way that Neptune makes its contribution is without great fame. Neptune knows when it’s giving itself without wanting anything in return. People always need help, encouragement, someone to talk to, people always need a friendly face or voice, so it doesn’t matter which occupation you are in. To live for others, to cry for others out of pure compassion, to release all concept of self or ego, which says “I want”, this is the greatest test for Neptune Sun. The idea is not to do it for the pay check at the end of the month, the idea is to do it, because your purpose and meaning in life only through others.

Those who must go through the transit or progression or those who live it perpetually would do well to understand that life’s meaning can be found in the religion of compassion. Ask yourself “How can I put a smile on that person’s face?” You don’t have to make jokes, or give money, giving of yourself so that that person finds success by themselves is enough. Many people don’t know how to be charitable, it’s not easy, which is why some take out their small change and give it to the homeless. This is one way, and it’s fine, and it can be a beautiful feeling when you do this, but just serving on a daily basis can be enough, especially if you work with people, with the public, those people have the greatest opportunity to give to others.

When you say I

When you say “I”, what do you mean by that? Do you mean your body, do you mean your hands, or your eyes, or your mouth? Is that really you? When you say I do you mean your feelings, your emotions, from happiness to anger to depression and sadness, back to happiness and joy? When you say “I love you”, what is it exactly that you love me with? Do you mean your body and your hormones and your feelings? Which ones and in what proportion to each other?

What part of the I is everlasting? What part of the I continues into the next life? What part of the I never dies?

In the next life, when you and I are both dead, will we be able to find each other? How will you recognise me in that life and how will I know it’s you? When we are both reborn and remember nothing of the past life and remember nothing of our “real” selves? Perhaps it’s the eyes that give it away? Windows to the soul.

When I love you, what do I mean by you? What is it that I love? Do I love your body? Do I love your words and your voice? Do I love your past and your future hopes and wishes? Do I love your likes and dislikes?

All of these things I love but what I  love most is your love.

Meditation

The malefics Saturn and Mars are guilty of all of our depression and anger, in this order. All unhappiness in life can be traced back to disappointment, or lack. When one goes to the core of it, it is lack of affection (Venus) and loss of hope (Jupiter) which activates the malefics within.

The only way to deal with malefics properly is to develop affection within, and to develop hope within, without depending on any external reality or force, without relying on  the love of any one other person.

Meditation and prayer as well as religion are the path which Jupiter takes. Venus takes the path of beauty and appreciation.

But the key of course is that beauty and illumination are not always in our world around us. One day is beautiful and sunny, and the next day it’s raining and the world is a hard place. The only answer is an inner answer.

In meditation, it is possible to find illumination. The key is to stop depending on the external world’s influence. The key is to stop thinking with the rational material mind.

Into the Sun

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On the Path

Supernova when you close your Eyes

It’s difficult to pinpoint the exact astrological signature of any one event, though some are obviously easier to describe. The question I pose here is one of those which isn’t so clear cut, though I can offer some hypotheses in order to take a stab at where this blueprint is.

There are some, who search all their lives for “something”, and never find contentment, they read thousands and thousands of books, and travel an equal number of miles, both nautical and terrestrial, and they still don’t “FIND IT”.

I’ve spent a lengthy amount of time walking past it, day in day out, and one fair, fine day I walked in. I opened the door and simply walked into the garden of Eden, awed by the tree of life.

Planets which are terrestrial and rule over the personality, these are the traditional “inner planets”. Extra terrestrials include everything beyond Saturn. These have nothing to do with the personality. This is the point in the solar system where particles turn into waves.

The key to the door was having a peaceful spot, to practice the mantra. Not only peaceful, but beautiful, dazzled in Sun, surrounded by flowers that look like red and yellow flames. I might say that this is a Venusian picture of beauty and peace.

The primary accomplishment was to disengage from the ego, and the personality. It required some clean living, and discipline, so I can thank the long transit of Exalted Saturn for this. Once I desired nothing, it was easy to untangle myself from my-self.

Since this is primarily an “inner heaven” which I have found, I might thank Jupiter and Sun conjunct the IC. I progressed from living in mentality and rationality, to living in a different area. If the third rules the mind and the senses, then what is the fourth? It’s the core. So I travelled inside. Right into the heart.

Total Inversion

Spiritual realisation came from stopping on my current path, turning around and walking in the exact opposite direction. I’ve found purest consciousness. When I released myself from the word “I”, when thought became something that occurred around and in that person that I once “was”, it was possible to step out from my “body”.

Who can I thank for these mystical realisations? Pluto first brought me intense transformation, Neptune brought me transcendence, and Uranus hit me with the bolt of enlightenment.

 

Still a Demon

But, I am still here in this body. I still have desire and senses and thought and mind. What’s the state of my consciousness? Revelling in Nirvana. The only way to progress is the path of the Bodhisattva. Christ was temped by Satan himself. Where would I make a deal with the almighty evil one? I drive a pretty hard bargain normally, but if that one with the strong will and even stronger ego, came to me now, how could I resist it?

Keep Going

Keep doing the mantra and keep on  the path. Transcendence was found in a terrestrial place. But I now know that I don’t strictly need a place. Anywhere where I am, I can transcend. I’ve often wanted to travel, and I can do so now, without actually going anywhere.

 

Houses and the Great Illusion

1st house

The first house is the house of the deception of the self. The stronger that this house is fortified, the greater the lie. The body is the most convincing lie of all. What happens is that the person becomes identified with the body in which they are, and the  grand mistake is  that when the individual feels pain, he, or she tends to say “I feel pain”, when in fact technically it is just the body which feels pain. There are many forms of illusion relating to the self, but the 1st house is by far the most powerful deception of all. This is the house where the person is incarnated into a physical body. This body is what most people refer to when they say “I”. When they say “I went to the cinema”, they are implying that their body went to the cinema, in conjunction with their mind.

2nd house

The second house is where the body gets nutrition. Many consider this the house of income and wealth but in fact the closer truth is that it describes the hunger that a person has for food, and what goes into the mouth. This house is deceptive, but unlike the first, a person can go without food for some time, but a person cannot go without a body. When we are deceived by the second house, we take great pleasure in eating. It is easy to become attached to food and to consider this as real manifestation, when in fact it is not.

3rd house

The third house is a truly hellish place. In this house manifests all logical reasoning, which naturally is interminable. No amount of reasoning or logic will lead to the truth. In general the human mind can only grasp and understand words and concepts which relate to the physical world of the five senses. In this house a person may travel thousands of miles going round and round his neighborhood, expanding that neighborhood until he knows the world like the back of his hand. But in the end all of these journeys are futile and meaningless, like the food that he eats, the money that he earns and the body which he identifies himself with.

4th house

In the fourth house a man meets his father. This is a grand deception, considering that he himself is a lie, the father however respected and great, is also a lie like himself. The fourth house is said to be the “foundation”. When the man comes into contact with the fourth house the grand lies which present themselves are his genetic ancestry through the father. Other lies which are prominent include the house or home, and the idea, if there is one of belonging to a nation or tribe. Such notions hold a powerful sway of any one person. Houses, like fathers are imposing and majestic in the eyes of a child. But the idea that one belongs in any one place is just another falsehood. Like the first house this lie is very powerful because of the physicality of it; a father is a physical person, like the physical body of the first house, and a home or a country is also a physical place with its own sensory experiences.

5th house

In the fifth house the man, or woman comes into contact with a fun illusion. This illusion tells them that there is something that can be won, that the physical body awaits some special satisfaction or prize. This house also manifests physical presence of people, in the form of children, but the love of children like the love of the self is equally mistaken since children are nothing more than physical bodies also, and when they identify themselves with their physical bodies, and demand their  parents to take care of them, their parents are dragged back into the web of deception.

6th house

This illusion involves comforts of animals or people who you can treat as animals. In the same way a horse works for you a man can also be trained to work for you. Slavery is abolished, but the same principle applies. The sixth in reality is a house of dependence in the way a leech or mosquito is dependent on human blood for its nutrition. Slaves, servants and horses may do good work for a man, but in the end, they must be fed and kept for by that man, and they pledge no allegiance or love for the man. Because the people of this house are not loyal then this house is less persuasive as part of the grand scheme of lies.  In the sixth house also dwells all of the bacteria and infections which we filthy humans carry around with us, some of this parasites are beneficial, and some are not.

7th house

This house’s potency to deceive is, along with the 1st house, extremely great. Its purpose is to provide a human opposite or “other” in order to encourage the person to cling to their first house and enliven it. In one sense the 7th stimulates the person into believing that their body is their real self, because that body desires the body of the other. If the other person is convincingly real, then the deceived person must accept their own body.

8th house

The deception here regards the fact of things in life ending, including life itself. When one is convinced that life ends, in the demise of the physical body, then this threat has a marvelously profound influence of the individual. The lie is that the end of the body = the end of the person. When the person believes this lie it is impossible to live to the true self and the life which was meant for fear of the impending end. The biggest deception of the 8th house is thinking (wrongly) that this is the only life. A person who believes this mother of all lies, will clearly go around in a panic trying their very hardest to cling to material existence, since they believe that this is the only and last material existence that they will experience. Misuse of the sexual energy is the primary reason for believing this falsehood.

9th house

When a person travels into the 9th house, the illusions which manifest include idols, and icons. This house also presents long journeys and literature of expansive nature.  This is the house of all false religion, because it relates to abstract thought. The idols of the 9th can take any form. Most people’s religion is idolatry when they worship Jesus the man, and Mary the woman. When they worship Mohamed or Buddha this is idol worship. Great teachers put on a pedestal and corrupted by simple minds. The Greeks and Romans, and other ancient peoples worshiped idols too, and in the same way, modern people worship “famous” people. The millionaire footballers and pop-stars are the idolatrous gods of the modern age. Modern economic policy favors “atheism” because it can create a religion which is more profitable. If people worship Jesus as an idol, they are less productive than if they worship footballers and pop-stars, since those gods earn lots of money, and as gods of money these are favorable in terms of economics.

10th house

A powerful deception is present here. The delusion for anyone entering this house is of being “well-known” or famous, or respected by the public or people at large. The nature of this delusion is that the public are just bodies themselves, and have no real understanding anyway. Ants may worship a human as a god, but this does not make the man a god

11th house

What a man hopes for may be a multitude of different things, but the lie of this house if manifested as people, is the same lie which is present in any other house. The happiness attained in this house is the same material fabrication of the previous houses.

12th house

This is the best house by far for disentangling the person from the cobweb of lies which come before. In this house a person will come to realise that all the other houses are false. But the danger in this house is that the person may become addicted to self destruction in order to fulfill that self’s desires and to feel alive. Self-annihilation requires that there be a self in the first place, however if the person attacks their own body in an attempt to destroy the self, then they are mistaken.

Rapture, today and every day

Heaven is found within. All religious and spiritual truth is found within. These are words that I heard but never understood, for most of my life, until I started meditating and seriously working on understanding “myself” or the illusion of myself.

If I were to go to heaven tomorrow, there “I” would be. In this sense I’d be taking my “self” with all of its flaws there and I would still be suffering there, and so it wouldn’t be heaven. To find heaven I must leave behind the “Ego”, all thoughts, and all emotions which relate to the physical body or the idea of the self. Heaven is to be found by those who are able to leave behind everything which builds ego.

I will be in the “Rapture” tomorrow, I am sure of it, because I will go and meditate in the afternoon after work. And as I meditate repeating my special prayer, or “mantra”, I will confess all of the things which are of this earth and which cause me to be caught up in hell, which is internal. After hours of this meditation I will ascend into a part of my being, which is spiritual and it will appear as a white light. And there will be no thoughts which perturb this vision, and there will be no emotion which is able to destabilise it, and with my eyes closed I will find heaven.

Jesus Christ the man, may be walking the Earth. But I do not need to see the man, to know Christ the consciousness. My physical body and mind will not go to heaven. In heaven there is no death and decay, and so the physical body as it is with blood can’t and shouldn’t go there. The solar body, which is a different kind of body, which operates in a different dimension can find heaven, but this body can only be created through not being attached to the physical existence, which is animalistic.

When I realise that my ego and my body are just a test for the real self, which is of a different dimension, when I understand that the earthly plain is not truly real, and that it is more or less a game or an act, and that my self in fact and my body is not my real self, then I am able to move forward.

I, as a man, am a body, and of flesh, I have family which are also made of flesh and I have a job and a role, which is mental, but which is nothing more than sustenance to that flesh. But when we talk about consciousness, we leave the lower mind, which relates to the matter of the earth, and we also leave behind all things related to the body. Those who will find the rapture tomorrow will leave behind their physical bodies, this does not mean death, it just means awakening of consciousness.

The idea of heaven is not “post-physical death”. This is the great mistake of modern thought, which looks at the spiritual writings and says, after death, is the afterlife and heaven. No, heaven is on earth, heaven does not occur after one dies at the age of 78 after living a “good life”. Heaven is possible now. Heaven is spiritual living. The biggest spiritual mistake is to believe that God is only to be found or seen after physical death. All my life, I inclined to believe that God was something the individual came into contact with as an external entity. It is true we must be “good” in order to begin to live the way we were meant to live, which is in true glory.

To begin the journey I must go into myself. It takes concentration to silence all thoughts related to the lower mind, and there are techniques to doing this, which involve prayer, or mantra, sitting in silence in a serene location, preferably with a pond or lake with fish in it and trees, and stillness. The aim is to leave behind totally the daily life. At first thoughts which relate to this unreal life will swim around in the consciousness, and they will do all they can to talk over the spirit. Once the lower mind is conquered, there will still be emotion, or feeling which exists, like a residue of past events, which can weigh a person down. Focusing on something within nature such as a stone or flower, and understanding its existence in relation to all things around it, will help me to calm those waters. This is a long process and it requires persistence and strength of mind in order to get results.

All belief which relates the personal ego of this life to the eternal soul, is seriously mistaken.  The idea that “I” as a personality, or even as a collection of memories related to the physical life of my human body could live, or even want to live eternally is absurd. When one has experienced suffering in life and has understood that all of life is suffering and that all individual egos are caught in the illusion of the self, then one understands that for that individual ego to continue living after physical death is not only impossible, but utterly undesirable also.

I as a person, as a physical body, do not wish to continue living after death. This life is a trial, it is suffering. But this suffering is a wonderful opportunity in which to develop pure consciousness. All that which you can see and test, is logic, and relates directly with physical existence. But  there is a higher knowledge, a higher understanding which is not one mind which can only deal with one thought at a time, and this is heavenly knowledge, and relates to the tree of life.

In this life I must turn things on its head. It doesn’t matter if I lose my job or fail my course. It doesn’t matter if I have not money either. It doesn’t matter if my love for someone is not mutual. All of these things are superficial distractions, because they are primarily external to the true self, and that they are all part of the ego of illusion. If all of these things in my life were to fall apart and leave me, I should be happy, because I would have the chance to work on my true self. I would have the chance to go inside and find heaven.